Since I have started my journey at NCAD I have continuously failed. I failed my first year of college, and that failure has stayed with me until recently. Six weeks from my final submission, for my final year, I felt like I was going to fail again. I felt lost in my work. I was unsure how to move forward. I kept thinking I'm stuck in a dead end. It was only after accepting that I was failing that this stopped. I had to understand what failing actually meant. Not as an end but instead a continuation of the process. It allows for a new approach to be taken. Failing is something that won’t last forever. It’s something that I can look forward to.
!['BigJames'](https://2022.ncad.works/media/pages/graduates/james-eamonn-kennedy/210a4abff4-1653651069/1-big-james-being-seen2-1200x-q90.jpg)
'BigJames'
!['BigJames at Red Square'](https://2022.ncad.works/media/pages/graduates/james-eamonn-kennedy/0bd73c1fcf-1653651070/2-img-0093-1200x-q90.jpg)
'BigJames at Red Square'
!['Inability'; A book on my failings](https://2022.ncad.works/media/pages/graduates/james-eamonn-kennedy/76002c8c96-1653651071/3-failing-1200x-q90.jpg)
'Inability'; A book on my failings
![Book introduction](https://2022.ncad.works/media/pages/graduates/james-eamonn-kennedy/64526077d5-1653651071/4-book-intro-1200x-q90.jpg)
Book introduction
![Statement on doing](https://2022.ncad.works/media/pages/graduates/james-eamonn-kennedy/9e3c79a2a7-1653651072/5-doing-1200x-q90.jpg)
Statement on doing
![Feelings of my failure](https://2022.ncad.works/media/pages/graduates/james-eamonn-kennedy/0f895359fe-1653651073/6-img-2123-1200x-q90.jpg)
Feelings of my failure
![Statement on quitting](https://2022.ncad.works/media/pages/graduates/james-eamonn-kennedy/5de92a6212-1653651074/7-quiting-1200x-q90.jpg)
Statement on quitting
![Transformation of my failure into something new](https://2022.ncad.works/media/pages/graduates/james-eamonn-kennedy/25b01e7ec3-1653651074/8-parts-of-me-1200x-q90.jpg)
Transformation of my failure into something new
!['BigJames' turned into envelops](https://2022.ncad.works/media/pages/graduates/james-eamonn-kennedy/04dfb7977f-1653651075/9-img-2047-1200x-q90.jpg)
'BigJames' turned into envelops
![423 Reminders](https://2022.ncad.works/media/pages/graduates/james-eamonn-kennedy/b2a0abfc17-1653651075/10-img-2041-1200x-q90.jpg)
423 Reminders